Being an adult is tough work. I don’t know when I went from watching my friends make prank calls on their flip phones (just goes to show that I was too much of a rule follower to chance even that) to checking the status of my loans and bringing my green bags to the grocery store. All of a sudden I feel like I should be walking around campus on a walker because as I listen to the younger students in my classes talk about how trashed they are getting this weekend, I am busy hoping to God that I can please be asleep by 11.
I used to be fun, you know. Okay – that’s a lie, I was never fun but, I used to eat pizza at the dining hall and watch Glee with my roommates. I used to be a college student, a very pitiful one, but a college student nonetheless. Now though, I just feel like…a grown up.
All of a sudden, I call my professors by their first name. Who does that? It just comes out though – I can’t help it. I used to be shy, really, I was all like Dr. Blah, Mrs. Blah, but now I’m just like, yo – I’m a grown woman – you better recognize.
What the heck is happening to me?
You know what I said the other day. “I remember when you were a baby.” I said those words, out loud, to a human being. You know who people used to say that to? To me! It was always, “Oh my gosh – is that Sammi? Look how grown up she is.” And now, all of a sudden I’m saying it to other people. The circle of life, my friends.
Somehow without me noticing, I have become an adult and you know what – It. Sucks. Sure, I can eat Cap’n Crunch for dinner but, guess who has to pay for that sugary goodness? You guessed it, the granny writing this.
Obviously, I am being over dramatic today, I realize that I am still living my prime years but, there is something inherently scary about realizing that so much time has passed me by without even noticing. There is always a lot of reflection around times of big change and since graduation is 24 days away, I guess I can blame that on the fact that all the prospective high school seniors visiting campus look like they’re 12.
I don’t know – it seems like just yesterday I was sitting in my dad’s minivan and unpacking the (way too many) boxes for my first room away from home, and now, I am about to graduate and enter the post-grad void.
Do you realize that I am actually going to have to find an apartment that is not part of a university system? Jeez. Since when is that a thing? Since when am I going to have to pay full price on student discount day at Qdoba? Since when am I not going to have conveniently placed winter and summer breaks in my life?
Since when do I end my posts with so many questions?